I have a confession to make ... while watching the live updates on the beeb the other night I heard that Brighton had just gone one up at home to Roma and were applying pressure. In that moment a flash of Fulham's classic Roy-inspired 4-1 comeback flashed from my memory, and then in one unforgiveable and degenerate moment a most vile and disgusting sensation, or was it a thought, sprang into my consciousness. This is not easy for me, but some small part of my being seemed to acquire over-excitement and I believe I heard my inner mind express the words "go on Brighton". In over 50 years as a Palace fan who was present at many of the Mullery/Venables clashes this was a first and something I never expected. Was it old age or some misdirected patriotism that caused this I don't know. But I feel ashamed and dirty and I need to purge myself of this. So I come here hoping that with your love and care I can find redemption. Any advice would be welcome, but maybe suggestions of what types of penance I should undergo may help me find my way back to the peace of mind I enjoyed hitherto. Thank you.

I still can’t think of any penance harsh enough…….of all the posts of yours I have read (and often fully agreed with) over the years - I never saw this kind of disclosure coming. Im just very disappointed.