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Elphers40 Northants 20 Mar 24 9.00pm | |
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Originally posted by ex hibitionist
I have a confession to make ... while watching the live updates on the beeb the other night I heard that Brighton had just gone one up at home to Roma and were applying pressure. In that moment a flash of Fulham's classic Roy-inspired 4-1 comeback flashed from my memory, and then in one unforgiveable and degenerate moment a most vile and disgusting sensation, or was it a thought, sprang into my consciousness. This is not easy for me, but some small part of my being seemed to acquire over-excitement and I believe I heard my inner mind express the words "go on Brighton". In over 50 years as a Palace fan who was present at many of the Mullery/Venables clashes this was a first and something I never expected. Was it old age or some misdirected patriotism that caused this I don't know. But I feel ashamed and dirty and I need to purge myself of this. So I come here hoping that with your love and care I can find redemption. Any advice would be welcome, but maybe suggestions of what types of penance I should undergo may help me find my way back to the peace of mind I enjoyed hitherto. Thank you. I still can’t think of any penance harsh enough…….of all the posts of yours I have read (and often fully agreed with) over the years - I never saw this kind of disclosure coming. Im just very disappointed.
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Nicholas91 The Democratic Republic of Kent 21 Mar 24 9.28am | |
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Originally posted by ex hibitionist
I have a confession to make ... while watching the live updates on the beeb the other night I heard that Brighton had just gone one up at home to Roma and were applying pressure. In that moment a flash of Fulham's classic Roy-inspired 4-1 comeback flashed from my memory, and then in one unforgiveable and degenerate moment a most vile and disgusting sensation, or was it a thought, sprang into my consciousness. This is not easy for me, but some small part of my being seemed to acquire over-excitement and I believe I heard my inner mind express the words "go on Brighton". In over 50 years as a Palace fan who was present at many of the Mullery/Venables clashes this was a first and something I never expected. Was it old age or some misdirected patriotism that caused this I don't know. But I feel ashamed and dirty and I need to purge myself of this. So I come here hoping that with your love and care I can find redemption. Any advice would be welcome, but maybe suggestions of what types of penance I should undergo may help me find my way back to the peace of mind I enjoyed hitherto. Thank you. I've often been left bamboozled by the fact I can spend an entire year hating the like of City, Arsenal etc. however cheer them on in the latter stages of European competition. I even did so for WHU in the Conference League last year. So I empathise however BHA is a step too far for me. Perhaps a delayed symptom of 'Long Covid' or something ex? I'd consult a doctor.
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ex hibitionist Hastings 21 Mar 24 9.29am | |
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Originally posted by Elphers40
I still can’t think of any penance harsh enough…….of all the posts of yours I have read (and often fully agreed with) over the years - I never saw this kind of disclosure coming. Im just very disappointed. How do you think I feel? Would sitting next to the Ultras in the Lower with a Brighton top on do? I'd get a beating and it might have the effect of a public stoning on a blasphemer.
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Elphers40 Northants 21 Mar 24 4.26pm | |
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Originally posted by ex hibitionist
How do you think I feel? Would sitting next to the Ultras in the Lower with a Brighton top on do? I'd get a beating and it might have the effect of a public stoning on a blasphemer. There you go again! just the suggestion of a life long Palace fan wearing the Blue and White stripe of “that lot” has me reaching for the crucifix and holy water.
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